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Name: Marcia
Birthday: 8/31/1979
Gender: Female
Interests: Music, crocheting, reading, writing, artsy stuff, I like scarves and beads and the like, fashion, going out to eat (like a good american), the beach, pets, fake plants (cause you can't kill em) Family (probably should have put that one first), the color green, understanding God through aesthetics (that one is for you babe).
Expertise: I can quote way more of the Monty Python holy grail movie than I'm proud of.
Occupation: Student/Jewelry Designer
Industry: wha?
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
3/26/2005
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| I can't remember what I used to do to not gain weight. I mean - I know I ate less. But it wasn't hard. I felt like I ate when I wanted to, and ate what I wanted, but I think I had an internal gauge that said "eating that right now would be a bad idea" and I interpreted it "I don't want that" or "I'm not hungry right now". I'm trying to figure out how to reset that gauge. I liked that system - it worked well for me. And I liked the clothes I could wear when I used that system. I am still refusing to buy more clothes while I am bigger. Which means I basically have 2 pairs of jeans i wear over and over...I had 3 but one of them finally bit the dust (tore a hole in the butt).
My first goal was to "get in shape" - which meant back down to my original size - by summer. I didn't even come close. My next goal was to do it by the time it was jeans wearing weather - again it didn't happen. My next goal was to do it by the time I went to New Hampshire for Christmas. We leave tomorrow. Again - it hasn't happened. It's all starting to really irritate me.
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| So - how many of you have a facebook? If I switched over would you all pretty much be there too? I don't update my xanga anywhere near as much as I would like - I just haven't made the time lately, but I love knowing it's there. But I keep hearing good things about facebook - good setup, more people I would know on it, it's free, etc. What do you all think?
Oh, and I am officially on the worship team at my church. They have a lot of female vocalists, so I will only be on about once a month, but my first time will be a week from today, the 7th. I am feeling really good about it! I am nervous, don't get me wrong, but I think my excitement is actually outweighing my anxiety - which is unusual for me. It's a big church (by my standards - I went to a really small church growing up) and it has 3 services and I will be doing all three. It will probably be a little bit exhausting for me, but I know I am going to love it. I had kind of given up on my dream of using my voice in any way, but God opened the doors up wide for me, and I know He wants me doing this. It's good.
Josiah's great, almost 10 months. Gives a lot of kisses. He isn't walking yet, so Kian definitely beat him regardless of all my smack talk. I remember a year ago at one of my doctor checkups my doctor said "this time next year you will have a 10 month old, having his first Christmas", and I couldn't imagine it. I can't believe that was a year ago, I can't believe that much time has gone by! It's like you hit a point when the baby starts sleeping through the night (basically), and there is a semblance of a schedule and suddenly it's like someone hit the fast forward button. craziness.
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| I am on something called the "experience team" at my church. It just started recently. The basic concept is that we are trying to incorporate art into the church experience each week. That can consist of just about anything - the point is to create more ways for people to engage in the message. Rather than preaching about something different every week our church does a 4-5 week series. The experience team got started with one called "Dirty Little Secret". It was about the secrets we keep, lies we tell, because we are afraid of not being accepted or loved if people really know who we are, and that God knows, that coming clean brings freedom, etc. I chose to do my artwork for the week titled "I'm afraid to tell you"
I had no idea what I was going to do, I am not a painter, sculptor, I can't really draw - but I am artistic. I just haven't learned a lot of ways to express it. I ended up coming up with this idea. I took pictures of people - myself, Bill, my friend Kylee (she is also the leader of the experience team), and used an effect on my computer to make the picture look like a sketch. Then I printed the pictures out really big (kind of complicated how I did that so I won't go into it), then I used parchment paper and traced over the pictures in pencil, except I used words. I wrote out the kinds of feelings, and secrets that people keep locked up inside of them that make them feel unworthy, that create self loathing - the things we need to be set free from. The concept is that these secrets ultimately shape us, enslave us and destroy us. That is depicted in the pictures with the chains, and the burn and smudge marks to show how we are burned, stained, and feel dirty and broken inside.
These were up at church the other week, and I think they went over really well. I am proud of them, in a good way - not an "I'm so great" way, but in a "wow, I didn't know I could do that" way.
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| I was sick for about a week an a half. I'm glad that's over.
I am so tired! It's only 10 pm. Hopefully I'll get to bed at a decent hour.
Josiah is CRAWLING!!! In the last few days he's pretty much mastered it. It's fun but...deep breath.
I've been a painting maniac lately. We painted a porch/sunroom in our house, and I've been doing the trim and detail work, and now I'm working on painting all the doors and trim work in our house, plus one wall in our bedroom, and two walls in Josiah's room, and spray painting most of the doorknobs and hinges...it's a big job. I can really only do a little at a time because Josiah doesn't like being ignored for long. So I do most of it during his naps and after he goes to bed at night. In the end it will be worth it though, it's amazing what a fresh coat of paint and pretty doorknobs will do to make a place look nice. We are renting, so some people think I'm crazy for doing all this work, but this is such a cool house and we are going to be living in it for a while...it matters to me. Plus we are renting from family, so I feel good about helping them out.
I have some really great videos and pictures coming soon, I promise. Josiah gets to be more and more fun all the time, we learn how to communicate with each other more every day, and he is really sweet. A handful, but sweet. He gives kisses - which means he opens his mouth up as wide as he can and mashes his face into you, but we LOVE it of course. Plus I made some artwork that was put up at church 2 weeks ago and I took pictures. I will post them soon, I was really happy with how it all came out. I didn't even know I could do something like that, it was very fulfilling, and I've gotten a lot of good feedback about it, even from our Pastor who I respect. It was nice - very affirming to hear that from him, and I know he meant it because he wasn't even sure if I was the one who did it when he said it. Anyway...I'll get pictures up soon - one of these days when I take a break from painting.
Bill and I have been married 8 years. Our anniversary was on the 30th. I forgot. I couldn't believe it! Bill came home from work with flowers and a card and I didn't even know it was our anniversary!!! We'd been busy, I'd been sick and we had company all week, but still...wow. Life started flying past me at some point and I can't seem to grab it and slow things down. I'm just trying to catch my breath and keep up.
My sister in law Marie had her baby girl Ella on September 23rd. We found out she was pregnant RIGHT after I gave birth to Josiah. We figured she was taking her pregnancy test while I was in labor. I have been so excited. I have seen pictures, but I am dying to hold her - we should see them at Christmas. She was a big girl - almost 9 pounds. I can't wait to see Mike and Marie and their baby girl, and talk to them about their experience.
Well - there is a lot on my mind - TONS actually. But I need to chill and watch some tv and relax before I go to bed, so I promise soon I will post some fun stuff.
(I love this painting, someday I will have it in my home)
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| I started to not feel good on Saturday. As of yesterday I am full blown sick. Throat really hurts, blowing nose, sneezing, head hurts, eyes don't want to focus, want to crawl into bed until I feel normal again sick. Except I am a mommy now and I can't. It's weird, I realized that I don't think I have ever been in this position before. If I was sick in the past I could call in sick to work, I could cancel whatever I had going on, and I certainly wouldn't care for any children in that state for fear of passing on whatever I have to them. I'm still concerned about passing it on to Josiah, but I can't do anything about it. Blah. I need to get better fast. I'm drinking lots of water, and taking vitamins - any suggestions out there?
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